Sunday: Free Day??

So I had a WAY off day today.

After being pretty good all week long, and working 80 hours, I needed a break from the diet.

I worked a night shift (9p-9a) and when I got home I was too awake to sleep so I made biscuits and gravy... After which we took a nap for a couple hours... Then I had a couple potato skins... chips and dip... and then a dinner of red beans and rice. On the way to work tonight I stopped and got a pineapple shake from Sonic.

Not a good day. But I am sure I would have gone crazy if I had to follow the diet again today.

The worst thing? I probably gained back all I lost this week in the process! Thanks PCOS.

I still not to figure out when to work out. But if someone with experience in working 80 hours a week (night and day shifts) can figure out when to squeeze in working out combined with sleep and family time, please let me know!

Been a While...

I know it has been a LONG time since I've been on here... But I'm going to work on that, I promise! I've had "update weight blog" on my to-do list for a couple months now, lol!

This week I started the Slim-Fast diet. Am I perfect? NO. I wish I was but I think I have an eating disorder. It may sound crazy but I believe I have Binge Eating Disorder.

According to the Mayo Clinic: 

Binge-eating disorder is a serious eating disorder in which you frequently consume unusually large amounts of food. Almost everyone overeats on occasion, such as having seconds or thirds of a holiday meal. But for some people, overeating crosses the line to binge-eating disorder and it becomes a regular occurrence, usually done in secret.

When you have binge-eating disorder, you may be deeply embarrassed about gorging and vow to stop. But you feel such a compulsion that you can't resist the urges and continue binge eating. If you have binge-eating disorder, treatment can help.

I know it sounds crazy but that is me almost to a "T". In public with strangers I won't eat NEARLY as much as I would at home when nobody is home. I even do it with my husband there but not as much as otherwise. I always say I will stop and control how much I eat but that never works. 

For example: 

Yesterday I followed my slim-fast plan like I was supposed to: Shake for breakfast, fruit snack, shake for lunch, slim-fast bar for snack, then a healthy choice dinner. What did I do when I got home? Had chips, dip, and ice cream. NO BUENO.

 I have a wedding coming up in April 2014. I can't fit in any of my clothes and anything my size is "old lady" style. I'm tired of it but can find a ton of excuses on why not to exercise or eat right. I actually almost wrote an excuse after that "but" in the previous sentence.

 The exercise is the hardest. I work 70-80 hours a week, on average. I have down time at my job but it is still difficult to get motivate to work out. I just don't. I can think of all sorts of reasons. 

 You would think trying to get pregnant and be healthy would motivate me. But it doesn't. I just say I'll be good when, and if, that day ever comes. 

 I can think of reasons to be motivated but none of them have done the trick this time. 

 But I'll start with trying to just lose some weight with the slim-fast plan.